have you ever felt a friendship die?
have you ever felt a friendship die.
friends are open with eachother. when they're mad at each other...they definitely dont pretend like they arent. friends argue-but they work things out...they dont just ignore their frienship. friends listen. and hold each other close. b/c that is what true friends do. they love even when it seems like it is impossible to love. and forgive like they mean it. and no argument--great or small--should be able to break that relationship...b/c in the end, you should always be able to pull each other through.
i used to have this type of relationship with a lot of people in my life. i dont seem to have that anymore. sad.
i think that some people try to fit in with whoever is around; put on a mask to cover their true identity. i dont get that. because almost always, that person is so much better than they give themselves credit for. i don't understand why people put themselves in realtionships that bring them down, or why they put themselves in friend-situations where they know they'll get hurt.
i say all this, as if i haven't done each of these things myself.
i think that as i have gotten older...each day has made me realize that none of those things are imporant anymore. or maybe ive just learned that this year from all this stress ive been trying to sort through in my life.
lately ive learned that true friends are hard to come across. they might say theyre your best friend--or even just a friend--but when it comes down to it, theyd just as well leave you out in the cold for the next best person that comes along. WHY? it's the story of my life.
ive learned that in life that popular gets you nowhere. maybe it gives the satisfaction of having an identity--which in the most part, is probably just another mask trying to cover some sort of hurt or identity issue.
the only thing that matters in the end is who you are at heart and where you want to go with your life. how would you want to be remembered? and better yet, do you believe in hope...forgiveness....love....eternity....faith....
or best of all...the healing power of Christ.
there is a quote that i stumbled across while ago that really hit home for me.
"The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort and convenience, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy."
here are my thoughts....It is obvious that at some point in a person's life, he or she can expect to be thrown into situations involving challenges and/or controversies.. I think it is during those times a person truly finds out who they really are and has to rely on inner strength to do so. Better yet--relying on CHRIST and HIS strenth to pull you through...and to even heal your sould. Although the smooth path in life is generally desired, it is during times of trial and tribulation that a person finds his/her true strength. I have been faced with many challenging circumstances in my life. Not only do I believe that during these challenging times I found more out about who I really am, but I also learned that I have been able to overcome a lot in my life. Although some people look upon challenging situations as a negative obstacle in life, I believe that it is just as easy to look at complicated situations as something that has been placed there for a reason. Looking back at some of the difficult situations that have passed in my life, I realize that the moments that have really shaped me into who I am today are the moments that I have been faced with some type of challenge or controversy.
life is short and time is always wasting away. that thought weighs on my mind a lot. i dont understand why people are so foolish with time and relationships. i dont understand why i have messed up so much in my life. you can never be someone else. i dont know why ive let certain people in my life get to me. i dont know why ive put on masks of false identities just to prove that im someone that im not. God made me...and you...just the way he wanted to. pefect. unique....and youre the ONLY person who can be you. so take advantage of that. if people dont like you for who you are, then you're either a complete jerk *in which case--you should probably work on that....
....or you just don't click.
dont follow down the path that everyone else does. follow your heart. and guard it with passion. sometimes i think people put themselves out there too much...and then get crushed.
i do the same thing. i dont show it very much, but im a very emotional person. i put up walls to try to protect myself from getting hurt anymore than i already am. i get my heart broken easily. most people probably dont know that. not even my close friends.
however, now every blogger reading this does.
but hey...whatever.
i dont think people realize how fragile the heart is. i think i finally am beginning to understand. it seems, at times, that my heart gets to a point where i cant fix it anymore. if ive seemed moody or emotional lately--i probably have been. im so stressed. im not saying this becaues i want some kind of sympathy. im saying this, so maybe someone else out there will realize that judging people should never be an option. &more importantly, at the core of every person, they are probably struggling in life just as much as you are. so why dont we all pull together...and help each other?
ive been really sick lately, and ive been to the doctor what seems to be--99.9999 times repeating; all kinds of testing. im frustrated. they cant figure out whats wrong with me.
besides the fact that im 98% insane =). *haha
okay okay...but on a more serious note
(like this blog isn't already..?)....somedays i feel fine, and others i feel like im not fine at all. i dont just feel spiritually sick. i honestly feel sick. lets just say that along with being sick...migranes are my worst enemy.
along with the not feeling good-ish stuff....ive felt like a completely new person since the beginning of this year. it's almost like i feel like i cant handle my life. i've held in all my emotions, and ive pushed away people in my life that i love. it breaks my heart. im frustrated with myself because i let a certain individual get to me in my life. not only did this person do things and say things that were way out of line--to me and a some other people i really care about....but i actually believed all the junk that was said to me. how foolish. and to the rest of the world....i put on an act...like everything in my life was and still is fine. honestly...i feel like every single aspect of my life--besides God--has fallen to pieces.
sometimes i feel like
i dont know how to handle things at all anymore.
time.
friendships.
family.
i dont know how to get better.
i dont know how to love someone without pushing them away.
and i dont know how to even handle myself anymore.
friends are open with eachother. when they're mad at each other...they definitely dont pretend like they arent. friends argue-but they work things out...they dont just ignore their frienship. friends listen. and hold each other close. b/c that is what true friends do. they love even when it seems like it is impossible to love. and forgive like they mean it. and no argument--great or small--should be able to break that relationship...b/c in the end, you should always be able to pull each other through.
i used to have this type of relationship with a lot of people in my life. i dont seem to have that anymore. sad.
i think that some people try to fit in with whoever is around; put on a mask to cover their true identity. i dont get that. because almost always, that person is so much better than they give themselves credit for. i don't understand why people put themselves in realtionships that bring them down, or why they put themselves in friend-situations where they know they'll get hurt.
i say all this, as if i haven't done each of these things myself.
i think that as i have gotten older...each day has made me realize that none of those things are imporant anymore. or maybe ive just learned that this year from all this stress ive been trying to sort through in my life.
lately ive learned that true friends are hard to come across. they might say theyre your best friend--or even just a friend--but when it comes down to it, theyd just as well leave you out in the cold for the next best person that comes along. WHY? it's the story of my life.
ive learned that in life that popular gets you nowhere. maybe it gives the satisfaction of having an identity--which in the most part, is probably just another mask trying to cover some sort of hurt or identity issue.
the only thing that matters in the end is who you are at heart and where you want to go with your life. how would you want to be remembered? and better yet, do you believe in hope...forgiveness....love....eternity....faith....
or best of all...the healing power of Christ.
there is a quote that i stumbled across while ago that really hit home for me.
"The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort and convenience, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy."
here are my thoughts....It is obvious that at some point in a person's life, he or she can expect to be thrown into situations involving challenges and/or controversies.. I think it is during those times a person truly finds out who they really are and has to rely on inner strength to do so. Better yet--relying on CHRIST and HIS strenth to pull you through...and to even heal your sould. Although the smooth path in life is generally desired, it is during times of trial and tribulation that a person finds his/her true strength. I have been faced with many challenging circumstances in my life. Not only do I believe that during these challenging times I found more out about who I really am, but I also learned that I have been able to overcome a lot in my life. Although some people look upon challenging situations as a negative obstacle in life, I believe that it is just as easy to look at complicated situations as something that has been placed there for a reason. Looking back at some of the difficult situations that have passed in my life, I realize that the moments that have really shaped me into who I am today are the moments that I have been faced with some type of challenge or controversy.
life is short and time is always wasting away. that thought weighs on my mind a lot. i dont understand why people are so foolish with time and relationships. i dont understand why i have messed up so much in my life. you can never be someone else. i dont know why ive let certain people in my life get to me. i dont know why ive put on masks of false identities just to prove that im someone that im not. God made me...and you...just the way he wanted to. pefect. unique....and youre the ONLY person who can be you. so take advantage of that. if people dont like you for who you are, then you're either a complete jerk *in which case--you should probably work on that....
....or you just don't click.
dont follow down the path that everyone else does. follow your heart. and guard it with passion. sometimes i think people put themselves out there too much...and then get crushed.
i do the same thing. i dont show it very much, but im a very emotional person. i put up walls to try to protect myself from getting hurt anymore than i already am. i get my heart broken easily. most people probably dont know that. not even my close friends.
however, now every blogger reading this does.
but hey...whatever.
i dont think people realize how fragile the heart is. i think i finally am beginning to understand. it seems, at times, that my heart gets to a point where i cant fix it anymore. if ive seemed moody or emotional lately--i probably have been. im so stressed. im not saying this becaues i want some kind of sympathy. im saying this, so maybe someone else out there will realize that judging people should never be an option. &more importantly, at the core of every person, they are probably struggling in life just as much as you are. so why dont we all pull together...and help each other?
ive been really sick lately, and ive been to the doctor what seems to be--99.9999 times repeating; all kinds of testing. im frustrated. they cant figure out whats wrong with me.
besides the fact that im 98% insane =). *haha
okay okay...but on a more serious note
(like this blog isn't already..?)....somedays i feel fine, and others i feel like im not fine at all. i dont just feel spiritually sick. i honestly feel sick. lets just say that along with being sick...migranes are my worst enemy.
along with the not feeling good-ish stuff....ive felt like a completely new person since the beginning of this year. it's almost like i feel like i cant handle my life. i've held in all my emotions, and ive pushed away people in my life that i love. it breaks my heart. im frustrated with myself because i let a certain individual get to me in my life. not only did this person do things and say things that were way out of line--to me and a some other people i really care about....but i actually believed all the junk that was said to me. how foolish. and to the rest of the world....i put on an act...like everything in my life was and still is fine. honestly...i feel like every single aspect of my life--besides God--has fallen to pieces.
sometimes i feel like
i dont know how to handle things at all anymore.
time.
friendships.
family.
i dont know how to get better.
i dont know how to love someone without pushing them away.
and i dont know how to even handle myself anymore.
its like whatever i have has taken over me..or is definitely trying.
i dont understand. i never could make it thru all this without God. i know im just in some kind of valley right now *waiting hopefully to climb out...*--but it's frustrating RIGHT NOW. time and time again i feel like im getting discouraged, and God picks me up. i know most people are going through the same kind of stuff i am.
heartache. sickness. struggles.
.whatever it may be.
....im beginning to get a real understanding of how to handle some of these flaws i have found in myself.
im learning. im growing--in love ...faith....etc.
but i will pray. because the power of prayer is huge. i dont think most people understand that.
and whoever you may be...you can get thru whatever it is youre going through too. i love you, even though i may not know you. at heart--we are all brothers and sisters. i encourage you to find friends. true friends. friends can keep eachother going. so for anyone out there who has felt a frienship die...or a relationship...or maybe just someone you love....try to fix whatever it is that has been broken in your relationship. forgive them/ask for forgiveness...whichever it may be.
but don't lose people you love. get out there. and get them back. and while youre at it...
try to pick up and move on. with a stronger, and more solid relationship.
a wise friend once told me that "love covers a multitue of sins"
and i i believe this with my whole heart.
posted by meredith at 1:40 PM
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